Friday, April 6, 2012

Struggles & Saving Grace

What would I be without my struggles?
Like the water runs over and smooths the rocks over time, so does God to us with trials and temptations.

If I never struggled with anything or had any trials and temptations in my life I would never change.
My struggles define me and make me who I am - whether I overcome them or not.
It makes me think of Grace.
God's amazing, saving, loving, keeping grace. 
He had grace and mercy for me, because I am a sinner in need of a savior. I don't deserve him and a home in heaven as a reward. I don't deserve it at all! Yet Jesus doesn't care. He loves me anyway, tells me I'm more than the choices I've made and gives me everlasting life.

I'm struggling with a lot of things at present.
One, my weight.
I'm supposed to be on weight watchers. I paid for it and everything. Yet for the past few weeks I have been struggling horribly on it. I haven't been counting my points, eating the wrong foods, etc.
Somehow though, I've managed to lose 20 pounds. 
It's a start.
It's where I wanted to be by my 20th birthday and I met that goal so far.
I don't feel I should reward myself like I had planned. 
I haven't been sticking with it like I should, I don't deserve to get myself something special for losing those 20 pounds. 
I'm going to buy myself something anyway. Going to reward myself for those 20 pounds anyway. 
Granted, I still have so much more to lose. So much more

I fail.
I struggle.
I am sometimes powerless.

Philippians 4:13
          I can do all things through Christ who stregntheneth me

Yet, when I am weak, then I am strong. 
Jesus is my strength. He's stronger and more powerful than anything.
His grace is more sufficient than anything.

He gives me grace everyday. I should have grace for others more. 

20 pounds is a lot.
I shouldn't beat myself up about it.
I should be excited at even just one pound and "reward" myself as planned and keep pressing on. 
When it's all said and done, Jesus is my saving grace!!


  1. This is beautiful Jordan, thanks for sharing your heart. :)
    I love that song, it's soo true. God' grace never fails yet we fail all the time to have grace for each other. LOVE YOU!