Struggles & Saving Grace

What would I be without my struggles?

Like the water runs over and smooths the rocks over time, so does God to us with trials and temptations.

If I never struggled with anything or had any trials and temptations in my life I would never change.

My struggles define me and make me who I am - whether I overcome them or not.

It makes me think of Grace.

God's amazing, saving, loving, keeping grace. 

He had grace and mercy for me, because I am a sinner in need of a savior. I don't deserve him and a home in heaven as a reward. I don't deserve it at all! Yet Jesus doesn't care. He loves me anyway, tells me I'm more than the choices I've made and gives me everlasting life.

I'm struggling with a lot of things at present.
One, my weight.
I'm supposed to be on weight watchers. I paid for it and everything. Yet for the past few weeks I have been struggling horribly on it. I haven't been counting my points, eating the wrong foods, etc.
Somehow though, I've managed to lose 20 pounds. 
It's a start.
It's where I wanted to be by my 20th birthday and I met that goal so far.
I don't feel I should reward myself like I had planned. 
I haven't been sticking with it like I should, I don't deserve to get myself something special for losing those 20 pounds. 
I'm going to buy myself something anyway. Going to reward myself for those 20 pounds anyway. 
Granted, I still have so much more to lose. So much more. 

I fail.

I struggle.

I am sometimes powerless.

Philippians 4:13

          I can do all things through Christ who stregntheneth me

Yet, when I am weak, then I am strong. 

Jesus is my strength. He's stronger and more powerful than anything.

His grace is more sufficient than anything.

He gives me grace everyday. I should have grace for others more. 

20 pounds is a lot.

I shouldn't beat myself up about it.

I should be excited at even just one pound and "reward" myself as planned and keep pressing on. 

When it's all said and done, Jesus is my saving grace!!